Valentines

how is your valentines?
this year, i hate valentines
first, i cant celebrate together with him
make my day damn sucks
but at 12am sharp, we wished each other
although hubby is very sleepy
but he still stand till 12.15am only we off the phone
but that day
we chat very less orh
sobz
pig hubby is forever busy
at night, before 7pm already fall asleep
the night was so lonely
i have a very sucks night
appearance look happy
burst out laughing
but anyone know that my internal heart is crying?
i'm crying
my heart is painful
those depression
its like no more hope
and i know my current condition scares my mum alot
i'm sorry mum to make you unhappy and worried
but i'm weak
i'm bad at managing stress
i'm bad at managing emotions
can someone please save me?
do i really need a counsellor?

*pens off*

y am i so not myself anymore
y cz of u
i become like this