True?

dear diary,
sorry for dumping you for so long
cz these few days i also slept with my girlfriend
thanks to her
for accompanying me these few days
slept on the same bed,
using the same bowl n same spoon
going out with our couple shirt
went padini shopping
i'll appreciate her for accompanying me these few days
from me being emo till now
she did not blame me for disturbing her watch movie
did not blame me for using her pillow
did not dislike me for using her table
and she even cook red bean soup for me..
so nice of her
and i'm in love with her =)

true
he answered my call finally
he 3g with me too
he is calling me bau bei again
giving me muacks and smile already
izit true?
izit really him??
izit he won give up our relationship animur???
izit a good start already?
or izit he just wan me to focus on my exam and break with me later.
i'm thinking alot again
alot alot
i worry
the feeling of losing him is kiiling
the feeling of him sms me is happy
and the type of happiness is just unbearable
i just cried due to happy
but i dun want this is temporary happiness
i dun want
i want long term happiness
can??
can you gimme long term happiness??
but i'll promise to appreciate you more in my life
i promise..
i won become lil princess anymore
will tolerate with you
ok???
but i do hope this is all true
am i dreaming??

*pens off*

i love you
and i hate the feeling of losing
i dun want this type of feeling anymore
that's y i'll care
will appreciate your existence in my life