one week

Dear Diary,
sorry that i nidda borrow your listening ears again
to listen my emo post again
dun feel unhappy ok??
i believe someday, sure they'll be a happier post
patience

one week is given
this one week is in the stage of recovery
recovery of his 40% of lose
its just too much
i dun really feel one week is enough to gain back this 40% of lose
i've used nearly two years to build until it reaches 100%
how can it be a jump of 40% in one week time?
plus with his cold attitude, i totally do not have the courage to take this challenge
this is a hard one
a real hard one
no confidence, lack of ideas to increase it back
to reach normal
its even harder thn asking me to lose weight

i've not been smiling since the past 2 weeks
i dun even know the taste of happiness
yesterday, i've not been having a single proper meal
besides having a few pieces of weetameal
during 7 something
that's my meal of the day
thought of cooking myself my favourite tom yum mee
but i dun even have the appetite to eat
better not waste it so i did not ate anything
that's my life in sabah

back to room its boring
just because i'm different skin colour from them and different culture i deserve different treat
neway, just wish i can go home early
please come faster..!
and holiday please end slower
if go library
nobody to accompany me in the library
will be kinda bored also
and nidda bring tonnes of things there
ladtop, books, notes to cure boredom and study
that's why i rather stay in the room
at least now i can concentrate
but i won be as comfortable as last time

back to the one week
can i do it?
or should i just let it go
sometimes letting go is not the worst way after all
i'll consider again
how if we really lasted a week?
can it last forever?
he became cold n i'm no more his first priority anymore
i forever lose to his family and work
can i really go through it?
i really need guidance
and i'm healing from those injured scars all over my heart

Lavinia, stay strong.
there's no more hippo in your life but only Lavinia.
you can overcome it although it consumes time
be patience and dun give up
someday, you'll go through it
and say bye bye to a emo person

*pens off*

歌声很好听
谢谢你的陪伴
让我真的很感动
我希望拥有的
是长久的真心朋友
冒着雨唱歌哄我真的很动听