Lose Faith

when i'm unhappy

i'll be craving for tom yum

i have no idea

since when i have this habit

i dun care its a instant tom yum

or a super delicious tom yum

as long as its a tom yum

it cures all

seriously

i miss the moments hunting for nice tom yum

when can i have that opportunity again?

=(

and yes, i'm craving for tom yum currently =(

recently,

i'm being brought away by devil i guess

i'm doing things outside of the bible

i lose my faith

i feel angry and hated other person so much

i feel going church is a routine

not a willingness to go anymore

feeling that its a waste of time

not as fun as previous

not as happy as meeting people there too

sigh~

what happen to me?

for once, going to church is such a fun thing to me

i serve the Lord, praise and worship with all my heart

but now

i dun feel that in my heart anymore

what happen to me?

it was once a very comfortable place for me

its my second home

everyone there is my brothers and sisters

whenever i'm there when  i'm unhappy

everything is recharged

its the most comfortable place ever

but now

i dun feel that anymore

things seems to be boring there

as if everyone do not have the heart to serve HIM

will He feel sad?

i bet so

and yes

i'm doing things that hurting Him

i skipped my ecore class without any reason

can anyone bring back my passion to go church?

i dun hope going to church is just because its a routine

it already is a habit

i dowan it to be a habit

i wan it to be from my heart

i dowan to feel stress when going to church

the tiredness when i step in to the church

its like "what? and i'm here again"

"wasting time" or "please get me out of here"

i'm so wrong

dear Lord, Please minister in my Heart

and Bring me back to You

In Jesus name I pray,

Amen.

=L.Cupipi=