Its Not My Smile

Did you all try before

The feeling of u're smiling outside

but the internal pain is just so painful

that you yourself can feel that even in the picture

you cant feel the happiness inside

which means the smile is FAKE

yeap

and i tried that before yesterday

went to church for worship practice at 4pm

i seldom cry during worship practice

normally people only cry during worship

but this time, i cried during practice

God touches me

the last song "Word of God Speak"

its a hard song but the lyrics

indeed is meaningful

it was just like singing my feelings out

cant bear the tears anymore

and it just flow out after the last song ended

went out of the church

and yes, tears flow down once again

went back into the church

cried again

sigh~

how can i overcome such feeling?

HOW?!

its so hard to forget

but its suffer when remember

tried to camwhore again 

i'm smiling

as usual

teeth coming out

heeeeeeee like this

but, if u see again

its empty inside

who can fill me in?

who willing to fill back the happiness into my heart?

i really cannot bear those leave and hurt anymore

one by one leaving my in my life

yes

people come and go

i'm learning to get used to

but not all at the same time

i'm not superwoman

=(

L.Cupipi