~STPM Countdown #49~

oh gosh~
49 days left...
aikss...
starting to have phobia towards this Stpm examination...
what's my future??
its a BIG question mark...

its trials for biology today...
i did it very badly...
mostly gonna fail my paper again...
when my friend text me and say...
"luckily its kinda easy"
omg~
and it proves that i really did not prepare well...
nearly cry when i receive this text message...
but its too late to cry over spilt milk...
all i can do is to prepare myself well for STPM...
do not wanna end this exam with regrets in the whole life...

tomorrow will be having chemis paper...
a deadly subject for me...
nidda be grateful if i did not get digit number for this exam...
dun even dare to aim for pass for my chemis...
basic not gud...
plus the whole holiday i just study bio...
Din touch my Chemis a single page!!!
SHIT!!!!
how to catch up??
i hate equations...
cant even understand and write equation...
dun talk about balancing it...
sigh~
should i give up on this exam?? this subject??
actually mentally i already gave up...
seriously...
but actually i cant give up...
study so much, result sucks...
study little, results sucks also...
not motivated at all....
can some one Help me??
i'm drowning here...

just receive my muet exam slip...
its on next week!!!
what?
so rush??
don't even have time for speaking practice...
and the worst is i do not know my groupmates!!!
OMG~
how how how???
scratching my head.... *scratch* *scratch* *scratch*
can feel the pressure lately...

dear Fairy God mother...
do u exist?? can u grant me wishes???
just one wish will be enough...
please...
i really need help here...

*sobx * sobz*

*pens off*