Anti Social

Have Been being anti social recently

i dun go up to facebook

i dun instagram

just because, i dowana know what's happening outside

after a month

finally

i have the courage to go facebook

i dare to view pictures on instagram

and of cz the moment i saw those pictures

i cried

being scolded as a bitch is not easy to overcome

being scolded as a bitch without me knowing the truth

and i am blur

its even harder to accept

having myself to see things with my own eyes

having myself to accept things that i should not accept

having myself facing those emotions alone

having myself facing those obstacles

facing misunderstandings, mis-communication

what am i doing?

doing things to increase my own problems?

i dun talk to people around me

i dun find interest in doing anything

i dun smile i dun give a damn on what i am doing

life is like zombie

numb, meaningless

life have been so sucks that is is all about crying

crying crying and crying

but now, i should stand up

i shop like mad!

i shop for rm400 at voir in a day!

i just keep buy and buy

like there's no tomorrow!

and now i am broke!

LOL

but i am happy i think

at least for now I am

i wanna be happy!

i want i want i want!

i want back my smile

i want back LAVINIA!!!!!

i'll be Back!