A Simple Skype

v argued
through fb chat
i was worried
i ask him to guess my request
ended up argue

later
i told him my request
that is to skype with me
at first he dun wan to
but i ask again
finally he said yes
i just ask him
am i dreaming
he said no
i was happy
but worried too
duno during skype what's his facial expression

as expected
i cried once i saw him
i miss him
tonnes
i was relieve that he willing to skype with me
the whole conversation i was crying
did not talk more than 10 words i think
i can only cry
ya i'm reali a crying baby
you can call me that
but after awhile i stopped for awhile
and he ask me whether he wants me to listen to him sing
he sang to me
for the first time
2 songs
one is bout us, one is bout him
i can only cry
and yes
its crying again
i was touched maybe
but in my mind i was wondering
why he wanna hurt me so badly
when actually he loves me?

maybe u all feel i'm stupid
just 2 songs to melt me
ya i'm really touched
there is still hope for us
am i right?
b4 v end the conversation
i asked him
will u leave me?
his ans is
"i won, bau bei"
izit a lie?
i hope its not
it's really enough
i choose to trust him once again
for us
it gives me courage to continue
no matter how hard it is
i won give up
i believe v can go through all this
but what ever it takes, just dun lie to me
i'm afraid being cheated
i'm not strong
i'm fragile
just a poke, i'm broken
yes i am.

i hope every emotion that i face now its worth it
answer me with actions
i'll wait for you
and i believe in you
i have not been crying for a long time
finally
i broke down crying
unstopable

nasal discharge all.

its all tears

*pens off*

tears
i'm made up of water
i need you to dry my tears
i need you to bring me back to joy