call me miss blame

recently
feeling myself having a bad habit
that is blaming people
blame people for this
blame people for that
that's because
i have a habit of settling things immediately once i know it
once i planned
it must go according to plan
its a MUST
but sometimes,
things dun go according to plan
and i'll get very frustrated on it
throwing temper maybe
and being charcoal face for the whole day
as time goes by
everything become normal once again

i duno since when i have such bad habit
for me its like i prepare myself for you all
but you all did not
and i feel myself being a stupid to be prepared all the time
its like i'm d only 1 syiok sendiri there
that's why i dun like

argue with my dear too due to this problem
i'm sorry
sorry to throw temper on you when things is just not right
i just hoping for your pamper
but
nvm already
i'm sorry
sek farn k?
i'll try deleting this habit
stop being over worried
and over "gan cheong" for everything

so peeps
call me miss blame
but in some time,
i'll out of this miss blame nickname =)
i'll prove it

*pens off*

no more blaming
tired of crying
stop being an ass hole
stay strong lavinia~