~Apologize~

after blah-ing everythg out in that post...
start to feel tired...
duno y i feel sad n unhappy...
u're right...
mayb i'm dis kind of ppl...
double face ppl...
so dun come near me...
ok???
stay away if u dowana get hurt...
i noe what i'm doin...
i cant make every1 accept me...

i jz wanna apologize k?
jz like what god says...
people slap u 1 side of the face...
dun slap tat person bck at the other side of the face!
jz close ur eyes...
bear with it...
breathe in deeply and out again...
turn away n dun thk anythg again...
let god do the rest...

dear god,
that's d last post...
jz wanna explain...
feel unfair being misund by ppl...
or mayb its not me...
i jz thk 2 much...
and i hope everyone including me can b friends wid that person again...
mayb tat person won wan to have me as a fren...
its ok...
as long as that person is happy...
mayb whn tat person read dis post will feel i'm fake again...
bt its reali sincere...
angry a person is reali tiring...
as long as u dun step on my tail...
i'm ok wid it no matter hw idiot u r to other ppl..
jz abit "bu fu qi" whn i noe they jz keep themselves quiet...
as a friend...
feel like voicing out for them...
mayb its 2 much...
shud not involve myself in it...
i'm sorry... T.T

anyway, jz wanna apologize...
apologize to any1 that i've hurt...
my mum...
my siblings and family...
my dear freinds...
i'm really sorry...
i'll prove to u all that i'll b a btr person...
i'll try my best not letting u all down...

Lavinia, Gambateh!!!!

learning to be strong...
sincere...
and alwiz say i love u...
n i'm sorry...
please forgive me...

*pens off*