~Just Wanna Apologize~

having my 1st lesson of bio extra class yesterday...
my teacher was keep scolding on our result of midyear exam...
telling tat some of us did not prepare well...
n she felt dissapointed on us...
sometimes she feel like giving up...
bt she noe tat tis is her last year as she gonna retire soon...
she wanna give her best try to help those weaker ones...
and...
i noe i of them is me...

1st half session of d extra class ended...
having a break...
went 2 d toilet wid my friends...
whn v went bck 2 d hall...
saw some of my friends standing ouside of d LH1..
whn i pass by...
"Lavinia, u stay..."
my heart sudd felt pain...
as i had actually noe tis will happen...

she started asking our problems...
i jz told her tat i oni study frm chapter9 to 10...
bcoz no time 2 study...
n i KNOW...
tis is jz an excuse 4 myself...
i guess my teacher oso noe...
she advice us...
giving her best shot 2 help us...
seeing her tears rolled down...
my tears roll down either...
keep asking myself in my heart...
y m i here??
wat m i doin here??
i shud b those ppl tat sitting inside...
i m not tat stupid!
my results r not tat bad last time...
Lavinia...
Pls dun give up on urself when d teacher is not giving up on U!!!
i reali duno wat i shud do...
will it b 2 late??
I jz feel guilty...
din do well in d exam n mek d teacher dissapointed...

the teacher reali teach us wid all her heart...
bt i jz keep letting her down...
Lavinia~
Pls stop tat!!!
Bt wat i can do??
i did try my best in d last test...
bt d result ended out not tat gud either...
wat i can do??
i oso dun hope 2 be tat lazy...
asking myself 2 b mur hardworking...
if time can turn bck...
i will take f6 oso...
bt i will reali put much more effort in it...
dun hope 2 b those bottom students animur whr my frens can jz laugh at us...
wanna change!!!!
bt can i do tat??
i reali duno T.T

bt i dun hope 2 let my teacher down animur...
i wanna improve!!
dun give up hope...
as GOD alwiz beside us...
dis is wat my teacher said~

thank you teacher...
ur words will alwiz be in my heart...
whn d moments ur tears roll down...
i was so hoping 2 give u a hug...
bt i do not have d courage 2 do so...
cz i do not have d "kelayakan" 2 do so...
reali sorry teacher...
i will try 2 improve...
n dun give up hope...
as long as i did my best...
no matter wat is d result...
it is d best result i can score...
n tat's true...

sorry teacher...
sorry mummy....
i do not mean 2 let u all down...
let me give my best shot in STPM...
i will not guarantee getting 4 flat or straight B...
bt at least...
i pass n i adi did my best...
n i thk tat is d best result 4 myself...
cz i adi did my best~


◎Lavinia crying in tears◎ *sobz*

*pens off*